Hailey Bieber Says Childbirth Was The Hardest Thing She’s Ever Done And Responds To Marriage Rumors

In a recent interview with Vogue , Hailey Bieber opened up like never before. The 28-year-old revealed what it’s like to be the internet’s favorite villain and how motherhood, marriage, and therapy have helped her stay grounded. “You change head to toe,” the Rhode founder says about Jack Blues Bieber, the son she shares with her husband, Justin Bieber. Her pregnancy, though healthy overall, came as a surprise. “The pregnancy was difficult for me to wrap my head around,” she admitted. “It was a surprise, and you go through a lot of emotions… There was a lot for me mentally.” She had prepared thoroughly by doing breathing exercises, acupuncture, yoga, and weight training, but labor didn’t go how she hoped. Despite all the prep, Hailey said, “Giving birth was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.” "That sh*t was so crazy. That was not fun,” she said of being induced. “They broke my water. I went into labor and I labored for a few hours. No epidural, nothing.” The birth lasted 18 hours, but the real danger came after. Hailey began bleeding heavily. “I trust my doctor with my life,” she said, but still, “I was bleeding really badly, and people die, and the thought crosses your mind.” Postpartum in the Public Eye Once she was finally stable, the emotional toll set in. “Being postpartum is the most sensitive time I’ve ever gone through,” she said. “And to be doing that all the while going on the internet every day and people being like, They’re getting divorced and They’re this and They’re not happy: It is such a mindf*ck. I cannot even begin to explain it.” She started taking placenta pills, continued with her prenatal vitamins, and worked through therapy to manage what she called “self-hatred” and postpartum body dysmorphia. “Every day I have to talk to myself, like, Hailey, you had a baby. You grew a human. You birthed a human. It’s okay. Give yourself grace. Give yourself time.” Still, the expectation to “bounce back” lingered in her mind. “When people talk about ‘bouncing back’—back where, because my hips are wider, my boobs are actually bigger than they were before. They did not go back. And great, I’ll take it, but it’s not the same body that it was before.” Her Marriage With Justin Is Strong Online gossip has followed Hailey and Justin since the day they went public. Despite the numerous TikToks that claim Justin hates his wife, behind the scenes, their relationship has only grown stronger. “It’s been my biggest teacher so far,” she said of motherhood. “The biggest teacher in my relationship. You see your partner so differently.” Justin, for his part, told Vogue , “I’ve done a lot of dumb things in my life, but the smartest thing I’ve ever done was marry Hailey.” He called her a “grounding, stabilizing force,” and Hailey confirmed that he’s become “an amazing dad” and “a natural.” Watching him with their son has only deepened her respect for him. She’s Done Explaining Herself Hailey knows she’s not going to win over the internet, and she’s fine with that. “I feel like I’ve fought so hard to try to get people to understand me, or know who I am, or see me for me. And people just don’t want to sometimes,” she said. “And there’s nothing you can do about that.” She’s learned to listen when people tell her to log off and let it go, especially Justin. “He was like, ‘Baby, trust me, I’ve been here before many, many times. You’re not going to win. There is no winning.’” So now, she focuses on what’s real – that is, her home, her friends, her business, and her baby. “I have a real life,” she said. “My real life is that I get to wake up to my beautiful family and my son and my friends and I have people that know me and love me and I love them.” As for Hailey being a stalker? “It’s not real,” she said about the rumors. “And that’s the thing: I have a real life.” When she reflects on how far she’s come, she’s proud of who she is now. “I like who I am so much more than I ever have,” she said. “There’s an ease that comes with it, a confidence. You really start to give less of a fuck about so many things. You’re just like, I don’t have the time, actually. I don’t have the energy.” She’s not losing sleep about the speculations about her marriage either. “You would think after having a child, people would maybe move on, chill out a little bit, but no,” she said. “So I guess these b*tches are going to be mad.” Subscribe today to get unlimited access to all of Evie’s premium content.