Camila Cabello Feels "Emptiness And Sadness" When She Thinks About How Hard She Tried To Look Good In A Bikini For The Paparazzi

Bombshell singer Camila Cabello, 25, has been in the spotlight for years. But that doesn't mean she has become completely immune to the effects of paparazzi following her around all the time.

By Gina Florio2 min read
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This weekend Camila Cabello decided to enjoy a relaxing time on the beach in Miami. She did what any normal woman would do—put on her favorite bikini, gather a towel and sunscreen, and head out into the sun with a smile on her face. After the paparazzi photos surfaced of her enjoying her time outside, however, she opened up about how difficult it is to be followed around everywhere and have your body scrutinized.

Camila Cabello Wrote about the "Sadness and Emptiness" She Feels

This certainly isn't the first time that Camila has been followed around by paparazzi, and she's spoken up about it before. This time she took to Twitter to share a note she wrote about her self-esteem and how hard she works to prepare for the inevitable paparazzi pictures.

"Every time Ive gone to this beach club in Miami I get papped," she said. "I've worn bikinis that were to small and paid no mind to how I looked, then saw pictures online and comments and been so upset." [sic]

She admitted that all of the comments affect her self-esteem. After all, we live in a culture that "has gotten so used to an image of what a 'healthy' woman's body looks like that is completely not real for a lot of women." Camila points to "photoshop, restrictive eating, over exercising, and choosing angles that make our bodies look different than how they are in the moment and in their natural form" as the culprits for why women have such an impossible beauty standard to meet.

"I'm a single woman in her 20s and in the middle of a shit ton of promo and I want to feel like I look 'good,'" she continued. "Today I got a new bikini, a whole f***in cute outfit, put lip gloss on, and didn't eat anything too heavy before going in the OCEAN cause I knew it was gonna be basically a whole photoshoot."

She even admitted to holding her core "so tight" that her abs hurt. She "didn't breathe and barely smiled and was so self conscious" of where the paparazzi were the whole time. "I couldn't let go and relax and do what we're meant to do when we go out into nature," she said.

Camila concluded by talking about the toddler she saw on the beach, and how uninhibited and "playful" they were on a beautiful day on the beach. "All the therapy, all the inner work is to try and get back to feeling like 7 year old me on the beach," she said. "I'm mourning her today. Happy, silly, breathing, pretending to be a mermaid, FREE."