Clare Crawley, 40, famous for getting engaged to boyfriend Dale Moss after only knowing him for two weeks in her Bachelorette season, shared on Instagram today that she was motivated to get breast implants because of her history of being a "child of sexual abuse."
She wrote in the caption, "As a child of sexual abuse, my young adult years were spent in unhealthy relationships feeling unworthy of the good ones. It was a vicious cycle, because the more I chose the wrong men who treated me poorly, the more I believed I wasn’t good enough. Enter the breast implants. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t excited to get them, but the truth is it was money that would have been better spent on therapy to heal my wounded heart."
Crawley continued, "I ended up spending the money on therapy anyway, cut to now. A woman who has learned to love herself deeply on the inside, knows her worth, and will fight for herself no matter what. I’ve learned the toxicity that these implants can cause on our bodies, as it has done to mine. So I am stepping away from something that no longer serves me…not my heart, and certainly not my health."
She further shared that the surgery to remove her breast implants will be this week, saying, "We are taking it back to Clare 1.0, who is lovable and worthy just the way she is."
Crawley had previously opened up about her unresolvable health issues, her frustrations with not getting answers, and finally her decision to remove her breast implants.
On July 3, Crawley shared a six-minute Instagram video with the caption, “I’m sharing this in hopes that it might help others going through something similar feel not so alone. I feel that this was important to share so I can be a resource for anyone going though this as well. I know how being your own health advocate is hard sometimes, and can feel like an uphill battle. This is the reality of life for so many people though! I’m just so incredibly thankful to all the people who are in my life that support me not only in my peaks but in the valleys as well.”
In the video, Crawley says, “The truth is that I’ve been going through things medically with my body that I have not had answers to, to be honest, for a couple of years. And it’s been hard, and it’s been frustrating, and it’s been scary for me to not have answers and to know something’s not right...and to have doctors say ‘it looks fine’...‘it could be this’...‘we don’t really know’.”
She described her symptoms: hives on her stomach, neck and arms, her whole body feeling inflamed and itchy, especially around her eyes, and swollen glands, among other things. She did blood work, and tried antibiotics, medications, and antihistamines – all without effect.
About a month ago, Crawley went to the chiropractor, who did an x-ray and discovered a “huge pocket of fluid” behind one of her breast implants and recommended she get a mammogram.
The initial mammogram raised some concerns, so she had to return for two more and an ultrasound, in which the doctor found fluid sacs behind her implants. Her doctor then looked back at her bloodwork and saw that her white blood cell count had been elevated for the past five years, “fighting something that we didn’t know.”
Crawley said, “As much as I love my implants, my body is fighting them. And recognizes them as something obviously foreign in my body. I know this is not everybody’s case. This is my case and my body…but my body can’t heal. My body is in fight mode. Constantly. It’s exhausting, it’s depressing, it’s frustrating.”
She continued, “As much as I love having these [implants], this is so important to me, that I love my health more. I love my well-being more. That’s what matters. And I was talking to Dale the other day, he even said, ‘Your boobs are not what make you beautiful.’ And it’s the truth. For so long I believed that that’s what it would take.”
After announcing her decision to have her breast implants removed, she concluded, “This is my life right now. This is my health. This is reality. And to me, this is like the ultimate love story is loving my body enough to know that this [my implants] is not what makes me beautiful.”
Clare Crawley joins the ranks of many other celebrity women who chose to remove their breast implants after suffering from mystery illnesses.