In a new docuseries, Demi Lovato reveals she lost her virginity in a rape, while working for the Disney Channel in the late 2000s.
Lovato, 28, didn’t reveal who assaulted her or when or where the rape happened. But she did say it was when she was 15, and it was someone she “had to see...all the time.”
Lovato described the incident, which began consensually, until she changed her mind and wanted to stop: “We were hooking up but I said, ‘Hey, this is not going any farther, I’m a virgin and I don’t want to lose it this way.’ And that didn’t matter to them, they did it anyways. And I internalized it, and I told myself it was my fault, because I still went in the room with him, I still hooked up with him.”
Lovato said the incident, as well as being a “part of that Disney crowd that publicly said they were waiting till marriage,” caused her bulimia and self-harm.
She also said she had a difficult time recognizing that what happened to her was a rape. “The Christian, southern girl in me didn’t see it that way because sex was not normalized as a child or in the south,” she said. “And, you know what, f*** it, I’m just gonna say it: my #MeToo story is me telling somebody that someone did this to me, and they never got in trouble for it. They never got taken out of the movie they were in.”
Lovato opens up about the incident in her new YouTube docuseries Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil, which premiered at SXSW on Tuesday. She also gets vulnerable about other trauma, her eating disorder, her addiction, and her near-fatal drug overdose in July 2018. It will premiere on YouTube TV on March 23.